• • • Roll her between my fingers
      Bite her between my teeth
      Draw her into my wanting mouth.
      Curls inside my aching chest

      And I beg for sweet release

• Her hot elusive fingers

  Slide back up my throat

  She blows gently against my lips

  And draw again

  Praying this time,

  I wont choke.

Crunch, I stood on it

Crack, beneath my feet

Why did no one tell me this felt so good?

Easy tears, easy easy sliding across and tearing up easily

Shards upon shard upon shards

Only a few jabs, you know what they're like

Pops up, licks me lick me- quickly!

wash it away with warm water

Pull sleeves over the wet wet

Oh! But it's so hot now

Mutter and curse, words- word

"I'm so sad sad sad"

Maybe, maybe but maybe

I'm just mad.

A strange silence reverbs across my mind

A silence so deafening, so terrifyingly absent

A resounding emptiness within my hollow chest

All the music in me has gone

All my music has gone.

TIme is a manacle around my wrist

Binding me to reality

My feet stay firmly on the ground

When I just want to fly

To capture it's wild heart in a cage and

Keep it chained

Hidden behind smiles

Destroyed and broken

"Never sing again"

I am broken loose, and untethered,

Please come across as my heaven,

Snapped apart, and left to be -

I am not chosen for anybody.

Rift of pain, so vile and deep -

When did love become so cheap?

Left to nurse an absent heart,

Never again my chariot.

Loss of Magic.

Depression isn't a feeling for me.

It's an absence of feeling.

I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

I'd rather be full of misery than empty.

Without feeling I am nothing.

Without feeling I simply

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